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Miss you guys

All my friends are either starting their new quarter, traveling or completely busy. Thank goodness for the internet, apple pie and the fact that I live not that far from the beach.

Day Three of New Experiences.

Au Revoir in Hillcrest! Amazing service if you are ever in San Diego! :)

I had a wonderful date with the beach this early morning, the beach as well as Tina Fey’s Bossypants and my music. I couldn’t help myself and no matter how cold it was it felt weirdly liberating jumping in the ice cold water. I got stares from the rest of the bystanders who were bundled up waiting for more sun to take off their layers of clothing. Hahaha I felt like a birdddd. I jumped around like a little kid each time a wave surprised me with its impact. Yes it was freezing, but it was lovely. I strutted out that water like a B0$$. ( also in part because I didn’t want to give some of the people looking at me the satisfaction of how indeed I’m crazy and that I might have frostbite). Thank you, San Diego. :)

A eulogy to a fantastic pair of sunnies

One of the coolest guys that I don’t even know.

I meant to blog about this a while back and luckily was reminded about it when I drove past the Mira Mesa Mall. You know that homeless guy that walks around with a shopping cart? I heard through the grape vine that he is crazy and digs through the CVS trash cans in hopes of finding left over pills. I once saw him peeing on the street shamelessly when I drove to work and once my mom tried to give him a loaf of bread but got scared when she approached him cause his genitals were showing. She described the scene by stating he laughed at her when she ran back to her car scared. Also one time we gave him an In-N-out burger because he was just staring at us in front of the drive thru. Anyway, this isn’t the point to this blog to define his craziness. I don’t even know him so I try real hard to not pass judgement entirely based on gossip. Also, even if he was a little out there before he was homeless, I have grew up watching this guy from a distance and who could blame him for being who he is? 

ANYWAY, back to my purpose.

There is this guy that I always see’s that watches him from a distance or stands right next to him. After glancing a few times before, I took the time to actually look what he was doing. This is what I observed. This guy doesn’t only give him a full on chick-fil-a meal (almost everyday i’m assuming, since he is always there) sometimes along with Mountain dews or coffee, he waits to make sure he is eating it or confirmation that he is eating. I never see him full on talk to the homeless guy, he walks up and gently places the food, sometimes laying it out like a picnic and then walks off to the side, usually a couple feet back and watches , in what I believe, to make sure he is eating. Maybe even to keep him company.

This guy is fucking awesome, no matter how much I try to be a good person in our community there is always things I hold myself back on doing either by fear, ignorance or plain laziness. This cool fellow takes his time by doing simple things like this. Ahhh it makes me smile. :)

I really hope that guy wins the lottery or something. 

This rainy weather is making me think a little too hard. I really don’t like it.

I have the song For The First Time by The Script on repeat. There is a verse in it that gets to me. Like I feel like my stomach drops or something. 

Which causes me to think about stuff.

I don’t like it.

If I have to hear about “ooohhh it’s cuddle weather!” one more time I am seriously going to take all my pillows I have, go to that persons house and pillow fight the living shit out of them. 

I am probably just not in a good mood since I usually am very lenient with this kind of weather. But this time I have run out of T.V to watch, i’m too lazy to open my back pack to do homework and I AM THINKING WAY TO MUCH.

Give me back my San Diego.

Now this made me feel z’all giddy :)

My favorite News Reporter of all time. <3

Soul Mates

Surprisingly I finally understand an understandable definition of “Soul Mate” in my opinion when I watched the season premiere of Real World San Diego. Yes, I am watching it. Why? Well because 1)I loved the original San Diego Real World and could not help myself and 2)I live in San Diego and just like the rest of society I am some what of an egoist and like to go “Hey, I walked that same way” and “Hey, I sat there” resulting in an impromptu 3 seconds of an ahh haaa moment, where I momentarily feel like I am The Shit!

Ok back to the topic.

During a scene Alexandra described her relationship with her boyfriend to Frank. She went on to describe him as a soul mate but how she described it really made me think. She described that her boyfriend was a Soul Mate but it did not necessarily mean she was going to marry him. I forgot the exact words she used but she basically said that he was her Soul Mate for as long as he was meant to be. Then she went on that there could be multiple soul mates. And this was an unexpected ahh haa moment that I experienced.

My personal definition of a Soul Mate: [inspired by Alexandra from the second cast of Real World San Diego.]

I believe that a Soul Mate is someone that you were meant to have in your life at one point. I believe that destiny or fate or whatever it is you want to believe placed that person in your life to leave a lasting impact of either a learning experience that was both positive and hurtful or overall entirely positive. (I don’t think that sentence made entirely sense but I am trying to say that the first part meant that let’s say someone you cared for so much at one point disappoints you.) You were meant to bump into that person and have them in your life forever or for an instance. This is where I think I tweak the definition a little bit more, I think that a soul mate does not necessarily mean a “boyfriend.” A soul mate could mean a friend or friends. A soul mate is a lasting connection that can hold up even if you never see that person again. 

I have never been in a boyfriend girlfriend relationship before so I usually cringe at that cutesy crap of soul mates. I eye roll at all that “he-completes-me” bull shit and I can become pretty cynical at the idea of fate and destiny. But after looking at the meaning of “Soul Mates” in a different way, I now understand.

During my life so far I think I have already run into a couple of my soul mates already. Even the ones that I no longer talk to as much or hang out with as much. My soul mates are the ones that have left a lasting long memory that guided me or even directed me in a way opposite to theirs that helped me learn and help shape the person who I want to be. 

I have some amazing soul mates. :)

I COMPLETELY FORGOT THAT MISSONI FOR TARGET HAS ALREADY BEEN IN THE STORES FOR A WHILE. 

The past week I was telling my mom how I have no time to check the stores and from what I saw online like 95% of apparels to the cute clutches/knick knacks were OUT OF STOCK!! I remember telling her how bummed I was that I missed out on getting something from Zac Posen for Target my senior year of high school. 

Tonight she surprised me with these! She said that she went to Target and these were the last pair of wearable Missoni she could find and that it was marked down to $8.76 in my size!!!! (well it’s a little uncomfortable but haaayyy)

Even though it will be rare for me to casually wear these rain boots living in San Diego and being like 2 feet tall they take up like almost half my leg, I will most definitely find a way to take these puppies out.

or if you need me to like stomp on grapes hit me up! I gotchuu

Yay for another form of obnoxious wear into my closet.

[Flash 10 is required to watch video]

My life changing experience during the San Diego black out.